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i never wanna say goodbye, love.
Hey, the name's Justine and I'm currently 7teen. I'm a bitch and I break hearts.I'm not perfect. I screw up sometimes, get hurt a lot and vulnerable to lies. :) I want a little something more. Don't want the middle or the one before. I don't desire a complicated past. I want a love that will last. Say that you love me. Say I'm the one. Don't kiss and hug me and then try to run. I don't do drama. My tears don't fall fast. I want a love that will last. I don't want a just a memory to give me forever. Don't even think about saying good-bye 'cause I want just one love to be enough. And remain in my heart till I die. So call me romantic. Oh I guess that's so! There's something more that you oughta know. I'll never leave you, so don't even ask. So there's just a little more that I need. I wanna share all the air that you breathe. I'm not the kinda girl to complicate the past. I want a love that will last. |
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© June 2007For your eyes only. NO TO SPILLING. Promise me you'll shut your mouth and keep your lips sealed. je t'écoute
le bien des autres
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Tenchi
Jamita
Ate April
Iori
Jep&Rok
Gian
Ate Maren
Charmoii
au bon vieux temps
j'espère..
to travel around Paris. i can sing for God. to help the slum people especially the street children. he would love me the way i love him. i can build my own coffee shop someday. & to be contented for who I am and what I have.
‘avec plaisir!
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Summer is Up
Hey all you bloggers, sorry for the late update. It's April and summer is up! This week was really a busy but fun week for me. I did a lot and I can say that this summer is the most progressive summer I ever had! hahaha! So here's what happened: April 6- I, Monica and Angelica went swimming! Wee, it was just the three of us (excluded Angelica's family) well in fact it has to be six! It should have been CNSB's outing, but too bad the rest of them have other plans and can't make it. The day was so much filled with fun and excitement from morning `till night. We went swimming with our swim suits on! Yeah baby! We climbed big rocks and took pictures together. We made a sand castle that doesn't even look a castle. HAHA! Sorry, I'm just being honest. :p We ate a lot of food, specially me and I got so full! When we got home, Angelica had a big big fight with his ex/best friend? WTF! The guy said a lot of nasty things to her. Like, bitch, PI, fuck you (sorry to use the words) and more. I got so mad at him that I am ready to fight that night. Seriously, I wanna kill him! Oh well, but I can't. That's a sin. But I told my friend that if i'll see him, I'm gonna make him down to his knees. Haha! Sobra naman ata yun? So what? He's not worth it. Get a life TOOOT! :)) In conclusion, the day was exquisite even just the three of us. What more if they'd come? I wish they would next time. I love you guys and I miss CNSB!  April 7- The start of our gym sessions. I, Monica and Maki went to Metrolifestyle to start our new life. haha! We were so desperate to get the bodies we wanted and so we registered immediately. We met this cute instructor, Kuya Martin and he serves as our instructor for the whole month. He's really cute! ^___^ We tried a lot of machines and exercises just to get slim then we finally stopped when we got tired and exhausted. We took a shower in the locker room then changed to our clothes. We rushed at BO's Coffee Club to chill out and have some time to make chikkas. Then we rushed at my crib to eat our lunch. And after that, played DDR at our ps2. I went to my bed and after a few minutes, I fell asleep. I woke-up due to the noisy sound of my friends and siblings laughing. Ugh! haha! It was fun! Tomorrow again! :)  April 8- 2nd day of our gym session. We did our usual routine by ourselves since Kuya Martin didn't show up. Then Maki's mom, Tita Blanche picked us up and treated us lunch at Mandarin Tea Garden @ Gmall. Thanks Tita Blanche! We went to Ateneo too just so we can get the result of Maki's entrance examination. We even saw Felicia there so she joined with us. I also saw my ex, wtf, what a small world! But I didn't talk to him. NYAHA! After minutes of waiting, we finally got her result. And fortunately, tantananan.. she PASSED! weee! We were so happy specially Tita Blanche, so after ADDU, we dropped by at the Mercury Drug Store to buy junk foods and other food. It was her treat again. :) Magcecelebrate daw kasi nakapasa anak niya. haha! Ang saya! We went at Maki's crib, watched this crazy Japanese Series, ate junkfood and just chill. Then I went home after. Congratulations Pol, I love you! :) April 9- The 3rd day. hahaha! We went to the gym very early than the usual because we're going to join the dance session at 8:45am. But of course we have to be there earlier to give ourselves a warm-up. We saw, Kuya Martin again, and oh he's still so cute! SHH! HAHA! And we joined the Metrodance with a mix of Mambo, Sway and more. After that, the usual thing we do. Then we went to the mall and ate at Tita Annie's. The food was yummy! :) After that went to Sonic Boom to play DDR. We're so addicted to that! And of course, window shopping! Our favorite sport! Who doesn't? hahaha. :) April 10- Good Friday. No gym, no hang-outs. Just at home. Boring! Well, good for me I'm not a Catholic so I can still eat meat. Oh yeah! hahaha! And I did some realizations too. Now I know friends are all we ever could be. I don't wanna force it anymore even though it's killing me. I never wanna say good bye love but I have no choice. I don't wanna look so pathetic and a loser. So long.. I'm not running after you, not gonna cry or feel depressed and not gonna wait for your love I'm tired of waiting in vain, so vain! But if you need someone, I'll just be here for you. Good bye love. :) April 11- Today. hahaha! duh? I woke-up around 7:30 am and just stayed at my bed for an hour to read the bible and plan my debut. LOL. It's still April today and my birthday's on January. See how excited am I? Who cares? It's my party anyway. I just stayed home and my family went to church. I didn't feel like going to church because today is my day and I didn't have the mood. Sorry Lord. :( Maybe I'm just too overwhelmed at the things happening around me? Plus, I didn't finish packing my things yet. I'm going to MVC, Bukidnon later at 12 midnight. XD I'm excited to meet new friends at the Youth Congress. I heard 11 countries are going to participate there. I can't wait for fun to come to me. Good luck! :) April 12-19- NOT HERE IN DAVAO FOR A WEEK. AT MVC, BUKIDNON. YOUTH CONGRESS BABY! GOD SPEED! EEK, HIATUS. So long guys, I have to pack my things and get ready. I can feel the excitement rushing through my veins now. LOL. I'll miss you civilized world, and of course, you! :) 
Confused.
I am. These days I'm starting to forget my feelings for him. I am trying, even though it's too hard. I don't even try to text him. I did lots of stuff just to make myself busy just so I can forget what happened. So last night, I was invited at my friend's graduation party. They really forced me because there were only 5 of them celebrating (KJ kasi ibang classmates ko). I arrived at his place around 9:00 I guess. We were having fun chitchatting and playing basketball. And suddenly we forgot to buy soft drinks. HAHA! So I went with them because I wanna buy load too. My cellphone beeped and suddenly I got a message from HIM.HIM: jey!I was like: "Oh my God! Shet, nagtext siya!" :) I felt like I wanna scream my heart out or jump till I'm satisfied. I was very happy and then I remembered I should forget him. But I didn't mind that, I replied to his message and we started a conversation. After 3 hours, I got tipsy from IT (I got the term from Jam, haha!). And he wasn't replying anymore so I didn't mind. I went home around 2 and rushed to my bed. I woke-up around 8:30 am and I felt an ache in my head. Nausea struck and I just felt so dizzy! I asked my brother to make a hot choco for me but it didn't work out. So I went back to sleep and woke-up around 12 noon. I checked at my phone and I found out that my messages didn't reach him that's why I didn't get any reply from him. I texted him immediately and apologized for not replying to him. Then I opened my YM `cause I got bored and I miss my friends. Suddenly, a window popped on my screen, and it was HIM. :) We had this fun conversation and it was so like yesterday. But our conversation have to end `cause he still have his classes and it ended like this:  Why now? I'm already starting to forget these feelings and suddenly you make me remember it. I'm confused. Should I go for it? Or stop already? Why is this happening? Is this just some good time or not? HEEEEEEEELP! X( I miss you Monica Katarina Ashley C. Jordan and CNSB! April 6 okay? Can't wait. XD See you guys! I love you!
And I can't wait for you to be gone
 I made this out of boredom. But yeah, it's true. I'm getting over him. I'm trying. I want him to get out of my mind `cause he really bugs me! hahahaha. Just kidding. :p This is my favorite line from Jojo's Leave lyrics. You should listen to the song, it's kinda nice. & oh, Happy Summer `09 everyone! Let's get out from our cribs and feel the summer heat. :)
I know, I'm stupid.
March 29, 2009- The day I'll never forget. The day I told him that I love him. I know I know, I'm stupid.I woke-up late in the morning, it was around 10 am. I had my breakfast and I got nothing to do so I just chilled, opened my lappy and watched the movie "If only". Depression struck me again. The memories with him still linger on my mind. Even though it was 3 months ago, I felt like it just happened yesterday. Everything is still fresh and damn I can't forget it. I admit, I'm in love with him. Define love. I don't know, it's unexplainable. I've been keeping these feelings for like 2 months and it feels so heavy inside. I wanna tell him how much I care for him and how much I wanna be with him. Shit, I'm running out of words. And at last, this day came. The aura (silent+love songs playing in my lappy) around me pushed me to tell him what I feel. I got my phone and texted him those sweet magic words. Hey dwin, I love you. He didn't reply. There were lots of things kept running in my mind. I was thinking if he would reply a "NO" or he wouldn't even bother my message. I felt like crying. But no, I didn't cry. I slept instead. After two hours, I woke-up and see if I have a reply from him. I did, and I immediately replied. Him: Ahh? Ohh? After that, he didn't reply. What was that supposed to mean? My heart was like Ang sakit! I still wanna text him but I don't want him to feel that I'm so kulit and immature or maybe a nuisance. I really wanna forget these feelings for him. I wanna get over him `cause it's killing me. It hurts so much. I went surfing the net like opening my Friendster and Multiply accounts just to forget what I did (it's so embarrassing!). I had my YM opened too `cause I'm hoping I can tell this to my close friends specially my best friend, Monica. But they weren't online. Good thing my cousin, Ate Janica (His barkada) logged in. And I immediately gave her a PM. She's totally aware of my situation and so I told her what I did. It was embarrassing to tell her that I finally gave up and told him my real feelings. I told her what was our conversation and she gave me answers. jana120690: If he truly loves you parin, bakit siya nagbago diba? Yun lang yun. Yeah, she's right. Maybe he loves me as a friend now. Maybe his feelings for me were gone already. Ate Janica told me that I can get over him somehow and there are a lot of fishes in the sea. And he's just one of it. I will soon enter college life and she said, I will meet lots of boys who are greater than him. All I have to do now is to read the bible, to forget him. `Cause she said Si Jesus na ang bahala sayo. The words she said enlightened me. I believe her. `Cause I treat her as my model ever since I've met her. And I believe I'll get over him soon with Jesus by my side. Well, I know God's been there for me always, but I didn't think it would be easier if I cling on to him. Though I pray for Him all the time. I just thought to myself now, maybe God gave this situation to me just so I would be closer again to Him. Maybe. As for Him, this would be the last time I'll scream my heart out to the WWW that I love you! I love you Edwin Bryan Sibug! I do! I wanna let you know how much I care and I wanna be with you! But I cannot just have this one sided love, I wanna get over you. I wanna get you out of mind `cause you know, it's killing me. And It hurts. Ate Janica said that if it's really us, it would be us. But if not, there is still that guy out there for me. The guy whom God chose for me. I remember my motto about love, Don't find love, let love find you. Indeed, but what I did was wrong. HAHA! So I wanna wait GPC in GPT- God's Perfect Choice in God's Perfect Time. I know I'll have him soon, it's just not now. :)
100 FACTS
from: jenny1. First name/second name > Justine Jan 2. Nicknames: > JJ, Jie, Jus, Jan. whatever you like :) 3. Married: > Not now, soon! 4. Zodiac sign: > Capricorn 5. Male or female: > Female. 6. Age: > 7teen 7. Highschool: > Colegio de San Ignacio 8. College: > AUP (Cavite) 9. Residence (s): > Buhangin, Davao City 10. Hair color: > black 11. Long or short hair: > Short, i guess. :p 12. Smoke: > No plans. 13. Drink: > inevitable. hahahaha, sorry ma. :) 14. Available: > NO, my heart's taken yet I'm single! hahaha! 15. Are you a health freak: > Yes, except now. I'm having Love sick! LOL 16. Height: > pwede secret nalang? 17. Do you have a crush?: > Yes. Crush/Love 18. Do you like yourself: > Totally, no questions! 20. Tattoos: > I got tattoos from those cheap junk foods and bubble gums! HAHAHA 21. Righty or lefty: > right 22. First surgery: > none so far and will never have. i wish! 24. First best friend/s: > my adorable cousin! 25. First award: > Most friendly? I forgot, duh. 27. First pet: > a doggy! 28. First vacation: > at San Ignacio! A memorable one! 29. First concert? > Damn I forgot. My first concert was I guess a religious one. :p 30. First crush: > si Kaloy! kapitbahay ng pinsan ko! hahaha. But he's totally cute! 49. Eating: > LOVE! 50. Drinking: > OCCASIONALLY, damn it's inevitable. 52. I'm about to: > think of answers 53. Listening to: > The sound of my brother's ps2 FAVORITES: 54. Food: > Blueberry cheesecake, chocolates except chocolate cake and ice creams, strawberries, spaghetti, lasagna, mango float, leche flan, beef steak, burger, and A LOT MORE :p 55. Drinks: > coffee, hmmm. it relaxes me. strawberry bits, yummmm! margarita, addictive! 56. Colors: > GREEN, purple, white 57. Numbers: > 8&5 YOUR FUTURE: 58. Want kids: > uhuh, i so love to! 59. Want to get married: > YES YES YES! 60. Careers in mind: > to have my own coffee shop and boutique, a successful entrepreneur. :) WHICH IS BETTER?: 68. Lips or eyes: > Both. but eyes are better. 69. Hugs or kisses: > HUGS! of course! pwede rin may sabay na kiss. hahaha! 70. Shorter or taller: > TALLER! I WANT! 72. Romantic or spontaneous: > Spontaneous but romantic. I love unpredictable guys. :) 73. Nice stomach or nice arms: > nice arms! :( 74. Sensitive or loud: > loud! yeah baby! 75. Hook-up or relationship: > relationships 78. Kissed a stranger: > NEVER! 79. Drank bubbles: > huh? hahaha! 80. Lost glasses/contacts: > BOTH. A LOT OF TIMES NA! 81. Ran away from home: > . . . (: 82. Liked someone younger: > Yes and it was crazy! haha! 83. Older: > YESSSSSS! 84. Broken someone's heart: > Yeah, and I didn't mean it. 85. Been arrested: > not yet. haha 86. Turned someone down: > a lot, sorry.. 87. Cried when someone died: > YEAH :( 88. Liked a friend: > IS HE A FRIEND? Uh, yes? DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 89. In yourselF: > I DO. 90. Miracles: > yes. 91. Love at first sight: > No. Maybe crush at first sight. lol 92. Heaven: > Yes, and will be there soon! 93. Santa claus: > Yeah, when I was a kid. :p 94. Sex on the first date: > NO WAAY! That's unacceptable! 95. The more you hate, the more you love: > Yes, i believe that. haha 96. Angels: > Uhuh, and devils too. ANSWER TRUTHFULLY : 97. Is there one person you want to be with you right now?: > YES! AND I WANNA BE WITH FOREVER.. chaka! 98. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at a time? >Maybe? BWAHAHAHA! 99. Do you believe in God? > Of course! I love God! 100. MISSING > okay, so give me one question and I'll answer it truthfully. I hope :)
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