It's her hair and her eyes today.

i never wanna say goodbye, love.

Hey, the name's Justine and I'm currently 7teen. I'm a bitch and I break hearts.
I'm not perfect. I screw up sometimes, get hurt a lot and vulnerable to lies. :)

I want a little something more. Don't want the middle or the one before. I don't desire a complicated past. I want a love that will last. Say that you love me. Say I'm the one. Don't kiss and hug me and then try to run. I don't do drama. My tears don't fall fast. I want a love that will last. I don't want a just a memory to give me forever. Don't even think about saying good-bye 'cause I want just one love to be enough. And remain in my heart till I die. So call me romantic. Oh I guess that's so! There's something more that you oughta know. I'll never leave you, so don't even ask. So there's just a little more that I need. I wanna share all the air that you breathe. I'm not the kinda girl to complicate the past. I want a love that will last.

dès le départ

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le bien des autres

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au bon vieux temps

j'espère..

to travel around Paris. i can sing for God. to help the slum people especially the street children. he would love me the way i love him. i can build my own coffee shop someday. & to be contented for who I am and what I have.

‘avec plaisir!

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I know, I'm stupid.

March 29, 2009- The day I'll never forget. The day I told him that I love him. I know I know, I'm stupid.

I woke-up late in the morning, it was around 10 am. I had my breakfast and I got nothing to do so I just chilled, opened my lappy and watched the movie "If only". Depression struck me again. The memories with him still linger on my mind. Even though it was 3 months ago, I felt like it just happened yesterday. Everything is still fresh and damn I can't forget it. I admit, I'm in love with him. Define love. I don't know, it's unexplainable. I've been keeping these feelings for like 2 months and it feels so heavy inside. I wanna tell him how much I care for him and how much I wanna be with him. Shit, I'm running out of words. And at last, this day came. The aura (silent+love songs playing in my lappy) around me pushed me to tell him what I feel. I got my phone and texted him those sweet magic words.

Hey dwin, I love you.

He didn't reply. There were lots of things kept running in my mind. I was thinking if he would reply a "NO" or he wouldn't even bother my message. I felt like crying. But no, I didn't cry. I slept instead. After two hours, I woke-up and see if I have a reply from him. I did, and I immediately replied.

Him: Ahh? Ohh?
Me: Yes. And I wanna know if you still love me too.
Him: I still love you naman, hindi mawawala yun.
Me: I mean love, love.
Me: I meant the love you felt for me last time.

After that, he didn't reply. What was that supposed to mean? My heart was like Ang sakit! I still wanna text him but I don't want him to feel that I'm so kulit and immature or maybe a nuisance. I really wanna forget these feelings for him. I wanna get over him `cause it's killing me. It hurts so much.

I went surfing the net like opening my Friendster and Multiply accounts just to forget what I did (it's so embarrassing!). I had my YM opened too `cause I'm hoping I can tell this to my close friends specially my best friend, Monica. But they weren't online. Good thing my cousin, Ate Janica (His barkada) logged in. And I immediately gave her a PM. She's totally aware of my situation and so I told her what I did. It was embarrassing to tell her that I finally gave up and told him my real feelings. I told her what was our conversation and she gave me answers.

jana120690: If he truly loves you parin, bakit siya nagbago diba? Yun lang yun.

Yeah, she's right. Maybe he loves me as a friend now. Maybe his feelings for me were gone already. Ate Janica told me that I can get over him somehow and there are a lot of fishes in the sea. And he's just one of it. I will soon enter college life and she said, I will meet lots of boys who are greater than him. All I have to do now is to read the bible, to forget him. `Cause she said

Si Jesus na ang bahala sayo.

The words she said enlightened me. I believe her. `Cause I treat her as my model ever since I've met her. And I believe I'll get over him soon with Jesus by my side. Well, I know God's been there for me always, but I didn't think it would be easier if I cling on to him. Though I pray for Him all the time. I just thought to myself now, maybe God gave this situation to me just so I would be closer again to Him. Maybe. As for Him, this would be the last time I'll scream my heart out to the WWW that I love you! I love you Edwin Bryan Sibug! I do! I wanna let you know how much I care and I wanna be with you! But I cannot just have this one sided love, I wanna get over you. I wanna get you out of mind `cause you know, it's killing me. And It hurts.

Ate Janica said that if it's really us, it would be us. But if not, there is still that guy out there for me. The guy whom God chose for me. I remember my motto about love, Don't find love, let love find you. Indeed, but what I did was wrong. HAHA! So I wanna wait GPC in GPT- God's Perfect Choice in God's Perfect Time. I know I'll have him soon, it's just not now. :)